Welcome to my blog about nothing, really.
I feel if I am going to blog, I should be in touch with who I am and what I am about too. I feel it is important to know who I am now and since life has changed, I have changed a bit too. I figured writing about it will get some thoughts out and allow me to see who I have become.
I have for years used the word esoteric as a word that describes me. The word esoteric is defined as, “understood by or meant for only a few select few who have special knowledge or interest; belonging to a select few; or private, secret, confidential.” Esoteric is the very word that describes me and my life. I remember being a kid on our boat in Catalina looking at the bigger boat moored in front of us summer after summer. I never understood that word until I was older and boy, was it a right fit. Having grown up in a male dominated family business, having raced cars and having chosen a male dominated field for a career, I sure lead a double life. I enjoy being a girly girl and am just as comfortable being one of the guys. I am a simple individual in so many ways, but also a complex one.
Like I said, I see myself as a simple yet complex individual. Life sure has been very sweet to me as well as harsh a few times over. I am sometimes serious yet other times love to laugh more than anything in the world. I am shy yet rather loud. I am calm yet dramatic. I focus on the positive of life and hope that I can bring others positivity.
I am strong much of the time but sometimes feel weak or vulnerable. I am happy much of the time but sometimes don’t know what my purpose is life is these days. I am in a transition period now and trying to figure out what I am doing. No matter how I feel, I be sure everyday to be 100% grateful for all I have, my health, my family and true friends and my job for all it’s given me.
I’m just an All-American girl who enjoys the simple things in life. Laughter, passion, love, and friendship are the best things in life. I look forward to the hot summertime weather, soaking up the rays, my flip flops, and some waterskiing on the lake. I love being outdoors. In the wintertime, I look forward to watching football on the couch by the fireplace. I love to read and my books are my most precious collection. I have enjoyed collecting books since finding you can buy them secondhand and cheap. I wish I was more active outdoors and that plan has backfired thus far. I want to be out and healthy and active almost daily. That is a struggle but somehow I plan to conquer this.
I love food and good wine. Food is my biggest passion. I am a foodie for sure. I always said I was a food addict. I eat when I am happy, to celebrate, when I am sad, to feel better. I eat for anything in between. Food takes me back when my family was intact and holiday meals and nightly dinners were a part of my childhood. Food takes me to meals with friends that are some of the most special times I have ever had. Add wine into the mix, oh, fun times.
I enjoy being rebellious (not that I ever do) since the conservative side of me has me pretty serious much of the time. In another life I would be a race car driver or a bestselling fiction author.
In this life, I like challenge, fighting my fears, and success. Life is about being yourself, having inner peace, and enjoying the simple things in life.
I don’t want to run the world, but I wouldn’t mind taking it for a little ride.
I have learned a lot in the past few years. It’s okay to be vulnerable for that is being strong. I treat others as I wish to be treated. I live and love with my whole heart. I choose authenticity. I own my imperfections. I own my story.