Tonight surprised the daylights out of me. Never did I expect for what happened to happen.
While I have heard a thousand times to follow your gut, I do not really recall ever having to make huge decisions or deal with gut reaction in my life before this year. A few months back, I dealt with it for the first time (twice within weeks) and now, tonight.
I think the Lord is trying to tell me something. Or teach me a lesson I have never learned before.
Well, I see and hear it clearly.
Tonight : Hit me like a ton of bricks.
Actively working on a project for almost two hours, I was hit with the remarkable unsettling feeling of gut instinct. I never thought about needing to put this project aside for a later date.
I am almost at my deadline but the sign to postpone was right in my face.
Dangling in my face.
Like a pendulum swinging back and forth.
Or like a child on a swing set in the park.
I did not want to accept what my brain knew. My gut was telling me what I had to do but my head would not accept it. It was not going to happen. It could not happen right now. It was out of my control though, something I was approached with. It was not like I could not finish the project in time for the deadline or that I changed my mind saying I was not interested. This was different. But still, I was in denial. I did not want to hear it.
Fingers in my ears – la-la-la-la-la!
But, deep down, there was a reason. And my gut hurt. I had a stomach ache. I had a nagging feeling I never get. And I knew what the reason was.
Within ten minutes, I realized I had to accept it or my stomach would not let me move forward. I literally had to process this within minutes and tell myself that I had to postpone this project whether I liked it or not.
I had to be at peace with something I had worked on for months. I had to be at peace with a change in my plans. I had to be at peace with something unexpected like this unexpected setback.
Setbacks suck. Well, do they?
In minutes, I turned it around and learned one of the biggest life lessons of my year.
I learned tonight: I have a gut.
And that gut is looking out for my best interest.
I think some of the best advice you’ll ever get will come from gut instinct.
With tears in my eyes and an overwhelming disappointment, I began to feel something powerful after I came to terms with reality. The stomach ache subsided and something very powerful hit me.
It made me realize there is something more to this. I am not sure what it is or when it will show up, but I realized in that moment that this project is something bigger. I felt in that moment I would be doing it disservice to finish it as planned.
I decided I would continue on working on this project until the time is right to complete it. I think I know when that is.
I will just wait.
I somehow came to peace with this and knew this was the path I had to take whether I wanted to or not. No choice.
So off track, so not what I wanted. Never expected.
But this was something bigger.
And there was a reason.
I initially said I would sleep on it. I then knew I did not need to. It was determined by my gut instinct and would not change in the morning. That I knew for sure.
While it may take a little longer to process the total disappointment and excitement as my deadline was so near, I feel the message of following our heart and following our gut is something we must do when we are given a message.
We have the permission to walk away from anything that does not feel right. And that we should trust our instincts. They say when God wants you to grow, he makes you uncomfortable.
God has a plan and you will not know what that plan is. Just continue and it will all work out.
Steve Harvey said, “Your setback is just a setup for your comeback.”
Bring it on. Use the setback as a stepping stone to the next project.
Never let a stumble in the road be the end of that journey.
Embrace the journey, right?
And keep going.