I feel different. It is hard to explain in words.
Is it because I drastically cut my hair and look different? Or is it because I am doing things so outside my norm that I feel I have grown? Is it a shift in my thinking?
Change is not usually something seen so vividly. Usually change is realized after time has gone by and something brings us to realize some growth has occurred. After a shift, we can look back and see the change and growth within us.
Not usually in the middle of changing, is it recognized.
I sit here feeling it, seeing it, realizing it.
This must be what living in the moment means? Is this about the moment now or where this change is going to lead me?
Change and growth can only mean living a better life. A more fulfilled life. Time finally taken to do the things we want to do and to try new things. Stepping outside of our comfort zones is where it all begins.
I never realized any big desire to change myself. Sure, there have been little things to work on along the way, but no big things that are monumental in a shift like this. Even though change is inevitable and we are constantly changing subconsciously, to be in the middle of it in the moment is to see big change.
I am guessing there is a message this time that the Lord is trying to teach me. I have yet to figure out what the meaning of this life lesson is but with some reflection and contemplation, there may be an explanation for this mindfulness.
While I do not have strict goals about who I want to be or what I want to change, as they say, it’s never too late to be who you want to be.
So, the question is, who am I to become?