Wow, what a difference a few days can make.
How in the world did I do this?
It feels like an outer body experience.
I never have willpower around food and somehow found the strength this week to locate some. Where did it come from?
See, I love food. I have always loved food. Food is a happy thing. It is my drug. I may be making excuses when I say I am a food addict, but it feels good to even say it. Food is a social thing. Food is a comfort thing. But I have never liked that I cannot control food and that it controls me.
So, back to this week…never in a million years did I think I was capable at work to be good and for me to be in control, for once. I even allowed myself to eat an unhealthy meal last night and still found progress within myself for the week. I think I even enjoyed it more.
I worked my 4-day work week and was surrounded for 48 solid hours by non-stop homemade baked goods including: pumpkin bread, fudge, chocolate chip cookies and an endless supply of Tootsie pops, thin mint melts and Heath bars. I did not eat ONE. And do not feel deprived or like I missed out. Okay, maybe a little, but not enough to care.
Everyone around me was eating junk all shift long and it was in my sight surrounding me for 12-hours each day.
I cannot even believe that I had this moment of willpower and keep thinking I must be lying to myself and ate a bunch. I know I did not though.
I focused on the foods I brought and made better choices eating out. I even passed up a Five Guys burger and fries. That is incredible. Unheard of. I stepped away when they ate their burgers.
So, what caused me to be able to have willpower and how do I make it stay?
I have never seen it before and do not recognize it even though I saw it for 4 days.
I do see progress already. In 5 days, I lost 3 pounds. I hate to think I need to look at numbers on a scale, but maybe seeing progress will make me stay on track?
When I can find myself having more control over my food intake, then I can start working on my gym habits.
In 4 short days, I did notice I enjoyed the foods I ate more when I treated myself this week. I did notice I had more energy at times I usually do not. I did notice I slept better and woke up in a better mood. I did notice I can drink more water each day.
A moment of will turned into a monumental willpower moment for me. A monumental moment for me. HUGE.
I hope to be able to remain on this path of building a healthier life as well as impressing myself with what I may be capable of.